[ He still holds a grudge about it. It's clear from the irritable undertone. ]
It wouldn't surprise me if she only did so because Rhea'li told her that is what happened to the star. Not even giving us a chance - bah! I never bothered to ask. She made her choice, and we were left to pick up the pieces.
[ That's not the end, Rhea'li is proof of that. They realize they'll likely need to talk to him after this and see what he says about it all. And then, of course, Elidibus. Better to get all the views they can given Venat isn't here. ]
When she sundered it as Hydaelyn, she sundered everthing to the aetherial level. Everything was reduced to a fraction of what it was before, including the star itself, split into fourteen reflections of itself. Our people were reduced to short-lived things, wasting their unbearably short lives arguing and fighting with each other over accomplishing anything meaningful. The creatures we so painstakingly introduced to the star were left to run rampant. Some that shouldn't have been released at all found their way out as well. In short: it was chaos.
...And only myself, Lahabrea, and Elidibus survived her blade, at the cost of having to forsake our physical bodies. We found the sundered souls of the rest of the Convocation and tried to restore them, but they were never the same. Together, we eventually found a way to rejoin the errant shards to the Source. Which is what I have been doing for the past twelve thousand years - and what Rhea'li finally succeeded in halting by killing me.
[ Azem sits in stunned silence for a while after. That's a lot to take in. Not just about their mentor but about how only three survived the entire ordeal.
And then to find out that Rhea'li was the one who killed Emet-Selch. They have to assume he had a good reason from his perspective. They would need to talk to him afterward and hear his side of the story.
After they've had a moment to process they speak again. ]
How was it that you managed to rejoin the shards to the Source?
[ He sits silently for a time. Then, reluctantly, he explains. ]
We instigated calamities of matching elements on both the Source and the shard simultaneously. A frightfully difficult endeavour to pull off when time was inconstant between each one. We accidentally lost the Thirteenth to Darkness before we realised our error. The surge of aether would forcibly break down the barrier betwixt Source and shard and collapse them together again. We succeeded at this seven times... But as we kept trying to instigate the eighth, Rhea'li would foil our plans. We had laid several of them and each one fell short.
Calamities... [ Their brow furrows once more as they frown deeply. ]
Then that means you killed entire worlds? [ It's impossible for them to keep the disapprovement out of their tone. As someone who has ever fought for the lives of others, they find it difficult to approve of such a plan. ]
[ He spits this out past gritted teeth. His fists clench on the table. ]
If you could see the way I do, you would have wept. Mankind were reduced to less than animals! They were barely fit to be called our people. Every shard we rejoined to the Source made them that much hardier. I actually began to hope we could salavage the mess Hydaelyn made of our star.
Well, you weren't there to find another way, were you?!
[ His chair screeches along the floor as he, too, surges to his feet. ]
No, you went off to gods know where and disappeared! You didn't respond when I tried to contact you either, and by the time Venat and her faction made their decision to sunder the world, it was too late! We went from thirteen to three before we even had time to draw breath - and we only survived at all because I made the impulsive decision to abandon my body and flee to the void between worlds with our Emissary!
[ His voice has risen to a furious shout now. His chest feels tight. This is exactly why he didn't want Azem to know. What were any of them supposed to do alone? ]
If you want to blame anyone for this then blame Venat for slaughtering them in the first place! She took her blade and carved them into so many pieces that not a single one remembered who they used to be! All we did was try to piece them back together!
Azem's hands slam down on the table, the resulting impact causing snacks and tea to spill. That goes ignored in favor of yelling at Emet-Selch.
Oh! So somehow it's my fault you couldn't come up with a better solution?!
Given all you've told me, did it occur to you that maybe I couldn't respond? [ They hate to think that they left in search of answers only to perish but if things were as bad as he says it's a possibility that hangs in their mind. If things were so dire they could even see themself not summoning someone to aid them.
As for the rest, they respond by straightening up and glaring at him. They stand silently for a moment before turning and heading for the door.
They pause just before reaching the door and sucking a breath. ]
I need to talk to Elidibus and Rhea'li. [ They don't leave. Not yet. They know walking about after this would only hurt Emet-Selch further. They know him well enough to know that he's lashing out because he's hurt. ]
[ He glares at the spilt tea and fallen snacks. He had expected Azem to walk out regardless. Even though he has braced himself for it, it still hurts. ]
Fine, then. Go. Leave. I've already spent the last twelve thousand years without you; you don't need to spare my feelings.
[ They yell back before storming out, slamming the door behind them. They pause on the other side, jaw and fists clenched for a moment before walking off. They want to be anywhere that isn't here so they can cool off before contacting Elidibus and Rhea'li. ]
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[ He still holds a grudge about it. It's clear from the irritable undertone. ]
It wouldn't surprise me if she only did so because Rhea'li told her that is what happened to the star. Not even giving us a chance - bah! I never bothered to ask. She made her choice, and we were left to pick up the pieces.
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[ That's not the end, Rhea'li is proof of that. They realize they'll likely need to talk to him after this and see what he says about it all. And then, of course, Elidibus. Better to get all the views they can given Venat isn't here. ]
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...And only myself, Lahabrea, and Elidibus survived her blade, at the cost of having to forsake our physical bodies. We found the sundered souls of the rest of the Convocation and tried to restore them, but they were never the same. Together, we eventually found a way to rejoin the errant shards to the Source. Which is what I have been doing for the past twelve thousand years - and what Rhea'li finally succeeded in halting by killing me.
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And then to find out that Rhea'li was the one who killed Emet-Selch. They have to assume he had a good reason from his perspective. They would need to talk to him afterward and hear his side of the story.
After they've had a moment to process they speak again. ]
How was it that you managed to rejoin the shards to the Source?
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We instigated calamities of matching elements on both the Source and the shard simultaneously. A frightfully difficult endeavour to pull off when time was inconstant between each one. We accidentally lost the Thirteenth to Darkness before we realised our error. The surge of aether would forcibly break down the barrier betwixt Source and shard and collapse them together again. We succeeded at this seven times... But as we kept trying to instigate the eighth, Rhea'li would foil our plans. We had laid several of them and each one fell short.
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Then that means you killed entire worlds? [ It's impossible for them to keep the disapprovement out of their tone. As someone who has ever fought for the lives of others, they find it difficult to approve of such a plan. ]
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[ He spits this out past gritted teeth. His fists clench on the table. ]
If you could see the way I do, you would have wept. Mankind were reduced to less than animals! They were barely fit to be called our people. Every shard we rejoined to the Source made them that much hardier. I actually began to hope we could salavage the mess Hydaelyn made of our star.
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[ They stand one more, voice rising. ]
Reduced as they might have been they were still living beings with thoughts and feelings of their own!
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[ His chair screeches along the floor as he, too, surges to his feet. ]
No, you went off to gods know where and disappeared! You didn't respond when I tried to contact you either, and by the time Venat and her faction made their decision to sunder the world, it was too late! We went from thirteen to three before we even had time to draw breath - and we only survived at all because I made the impulsive decision to abandon my body and flee to the void between worlds with our Emissary!
[ His voice has risen to a furious shout now. His chest feels tight. This is exactly why he didn't want Azem to know. What were any of them supposed to do alone? ]
If you want to blame anyone for this then blame Venat for slaughtering them in the first place! She took her blade and carved them into so many pieces that not a single one remembered who they used to be! All we did was try to piece them back together!
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Oh! So somehow it's my fault you couldn't come up with a better solution?!
Given all you've told me, did it occur to you that maybe I couldn't respond? [ They hate to think that they left in search of answers only to perish but if things were as bad as he says it's a possibility that hangs in their mind. If things were so dire they could even see themself not summoning someone to aid them.
As for the rest, they respond by straightening up and glaring at him. They stand silently for a moment before turning and heading for the door.
They pause just before reaching the door and sucking a breath. ]
I need to talk to Elidibus and Rhea'li. [ They don't leave. Not yet. They know walking about after this would only hurt Emet-Selch further. They know him well enough to know that he's lashing out because he's hurt. ]
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Fine, then. Go. Leave. I've already spent the last twelve thousand years without you; you don't need to spare my feelings.
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[ They yell back before storming out, slamming the door behind them. They pause on the other side, jaw and fists clenched for a moment before walking off. They want to be anywhere that isn't here so they can cool off before contacting Elidibus and Rhea'li. ]