By the time you read this, regardless of the outcome, you will no doubt be furious with me. I will likely be gone, at your behest.
I hate to hurt you. If I knew another way, I would do it. But I cannot simply stand by and see someone I love so dearly continue to be puppeted about by another primal. I want you- and all people- to be truly free. To have their motives, dreams, goals untainted by primal influence, to rid the world of primal beings that seek only to take and take and take from us.
I hate to see suffering, my darling. Zodiark, Hydaelyn, all of it aside- Calamities cause suffering. Can you understand, why I rail against them so? Why I wish so dearly for another way? There must be better ways, other ways, for the worlds to go on. Another way to kindly rejoin things, if they must truly go back to the way things once were.
But I doubt you wish to hear my motivations and excuses. I'm so sorry, Hades. I know I've betrayed your trust, but I knew you would stop me if you'd known.
I want to work with you. To build a new future. A better future. To work together, to find another way, because there must be. There must. I only prayed and hoped that if this works, this untempering- that mayhap you'd be more open to the idea. That you could find a new happiness and hope in freedom. In all the endless possibilities laid out before us- before you. You, who have boundless potential and knowledge and experience, you, who had the mind sharp and skilled to become Architect.
Hate me, reject me, scorn and shun me- do whatever you wish. I will deserve it. But please, please know this: all that we shared, all that I felt- it was not a lie. Not a ruse, not a trap or trick leading up to this day, though I admit I took advantage of it for the day itself. It was real, and genuine, and my feelings will continue to burn for you even into the future. Waking up beside you brought me joy, sharing these little days in this strange world was a kind of quiet peace I never thought I'd have the chance to experience. Learning from you filled me with endless excitement and curiosity, a gift I could never repay you enough for.
Please know that I love you, and it is real.
I pray you can forgive me.
Felih
[ There is a crossed out line something along the lines of, "If you would accept a shard, I would be yours." ]
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Letter from Felih, found on his bed after untempering (March 14 onwards)
By the time you read this, regardless of the outcome, you will no doubt be furious with me. I will likely be gone, at your behest.
I hate to hurt you. If I knew another way, I would do it. But I cannot simply stand by and see someone I love so dearly continue to be puppeted about by another primal. I want you- and all people- to be truly free. To have their motives, dreams, goals untainted by primal influence, to rid the world of primal beings that seek only to take and take and take from us.
I hate to see suffering, my darling. Zodiark, Hydaelyn, all of it aside- Calamities cause suffering. Can you understand, why I rail against them so? Why I wish so dearly for another way? There must be better ways, other ways, for the worlds to go on. Another way to kindly rejoin things, if they must truly go back to the way things once were.
But I doubt you wish to hear my motivations and excuses. I'm so sorry, Hades. I know I've betrayed your trust, but I knew you would stop me if you'd known.
I want to work with you. To build a new future. A better future. To work together, to find another way, because there must be. There must. I only prayed and hoped that if this works, this untempering- that mayhap you'd be more open to the idea. That you could find a new happiness and hope in freedom. In all the endless possibilities laid out before us- before you. You, who have boundless potential and knowledge and experience, you, who had the mind sharp and skilled to become Architect.
Hate me, reject me, scorn and shun me- do whatever you wish. I will deserve it. But please, please know this: all that we shared, all that I felt- it was not a lie. Not a ruse, not a trap or trick leading up to this day, though I admit I took advantage of it for the day itself. It was real, and genuine, and my feelings will continue to burn for you even into the future. Waking up beside you brought me joy, sharing these little days in this strange world was a kind of quiet peace I never thought I'd have the chance to experience. Learning from you filled me with endless excitement and curiosity, a gift I could never repay you enough for.
Please know that I love you, and it is real.
I pray you can forgive me.
Felih
[ There is a crossed out line something along the lines of, "If you would accept a shard, I would be yours." ]